Disappointment

It was really nice to reminisce her first day and who would have thought that the first girl she met in the university that day would become her bestfriend.

"Here, you could have this. I have a spare," she smiled and like Hannah, she was obviously shy.

"Thanks. I'll return it later," Hannah smiled back.

Hannah could still remember that the first time they talked was in Botany Lab class wherein she still had no friends yet. She thought her name was Chase but she was mistaken but it was close enough because Rose did look like her.

Hannah went back to reality and looked on that page and flipped it to the next and onto the next until she flipped more than a week's entries and found something she could smile to again.

"06/22/2006
Thursday

Dear Diary,

It was very hot today. The sun was up and was cooking us to death. Our botany lecture class was dismissed early because the prof had to go to the meeting and so we wandered off and then we split up, not just physically but the group of friends I like to think would stick until longer than a week just split up into two groups.

But maybe I'm just being disappointed that we split up this afternoon and went to different places to hang out but with their comments- the two girls with me who I haven't even memorized their names or even their nicknames- I was taken aback. They didn't like the other girls so much. And so there I was again, being safe and all. I just nodded and acted for support about their "used adjectives" to describe the other girls. I don't want to be an outcast, I was with them so I must act that way. I'm being plastic again but anyway, I didn't know any of them that much so maybe me acting this way is acceptable as far as now. I want to stay as is and be this blind for a while until I can hang onto them and find who will eventually be a true friend to me.

What a day!

- Claire"


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'Now that wasn't a nice thing to reminisce but in spite of that, I remembered being with my best friend since then till now. She was the only one who after all those years stood by me. Maybe becuase we were so much alike' Hannah thought.

It was a nice feeling for Hannah that she had a group of friends to consider as companions but when she remembered what happened that day, she was disappointed. She was then split into two and she wondered how hard it was for her to choose because she didn't really know yet where she belonged that second week of college life.

My Diary

It was a warm Sunday afternoon and Hannah Miles was cleaning her room because she was leaving. She had so much to pack and some things to leave behind or even to throw away. She hadn't realized how much clutter she was already saving in her little bedroom. She opened her closet and saw some notebooks and books piled up in a corner which she believed was the notes she had used for her freshman and sophomore years in college. She carried it outside the closet and into the sunlight to see if she could get use of some of it or she could just throw it away.

She sat by the floor near her bed after placing the notebooks and books infront of her. She scanned the notebooks one by one after putting the books aside for later. It was a pile and she couldn't remember the things that she could've written there. Well, yes the lectures but she didn't realize that she had so many of them until now.

Botany lab with drawings and scientific names, classifications and so many more she had memorized through those early years. Another notebook which was almost blank was her English notebook. She remembered that she didn't have anything to write that much in there.

Then there were her other academic notebooks and then an unusually cute little notebook packed in the pile. It was sky blue in color with cute panda in the front. She was sure it was something she didn't expect to find... her old diary.

She opened it and flipped it to the first page.

"06/12/2006

Dear Diary,

You're my new friend and so I'll be writing you about stuff going on with my life until I fill all your pages hopefully.

You know what? I'm so happy today because I made new friends and to think it's my first day in college. I guess this is a good sign. A good start for me this 1st semester.

I met them Diane, Ailyn and the other four girls who I haven't memorized their names yet. They're all good to me.

I approached them first. I forgot to bring my pen so I had to borrow and that little girl lent me her spare. I don't really remember her name. Maybe she was Chase and then the rest of them seemed to be comfortable with one another like me being comfortable with them.

I believe I can live through the next weeks if this good sign keeps on going like this.

Well, gotta go. Write ya later.

-Clare"

Introductions

This is the first story I posted on Goodreads.com and I decided to put it in a blog. It is about a girl who once fell in love and broke her heart. She kept a diary when she did and years later she found out that the diary was still kept in her room. When she found it, she relived the memories of her first broken heart and how she came to let go and move on.

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